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Hello, everyone!

Amidst existential and mental crisis for almost 2 long years, I have decided to come back into writing. Now you might be wondering what made me decide to do so but I can abruptly say that I have no recollection nor the sharpest idea what urged me why. lol. But what I am certain is I have been meaning to find a way to express all of these drastic ups and highs of emotions and the first thing that came to my mind on how to make this possible is by writing – thus, reliving my blog site.

A lot of confusing and reassuring situations have passed and I am quite ecstatic to share it with everyone in the next days. However, the posts will not be limited to my experiences alone but will also cater to other fun things such as travels, love, and dedication posts just like the good ‘ol days.

With that said, my upcoming post will be about: Decisions – Good, Bad, and Inevitable. ๐Ÿ™‚

Again, it’s just so great to be back. I look forward to sharing again good (and weird stuff) to you guys again and I hope we can all share about each other’s ideas too. After all, thisย  blog is widely open for friendly (or not) discussions! Teehee

(And oh! Here is a recent picture of me being done for the day:)


Out and about~



Day 7 of #30DayChallenge for October!

Actually, the reason why I wasn’t able to write for the past few days was because….
I felt bored.

Convincing, yes? I don’t know about you guys but I randomly get bored even though my schedule is jam-packed. Did it ever occur to you to feel bored even if you are with someone, or you are in a bar with your favorite people or go shopping without restraints (well technically you kind of ‘have’ the resources to do so lol)? It sometimes happens to me, actually. I pretty much got bored all of a sudden and from there, I decided not to exert any conscious effort in ALL aspects. Say, for example, I started to play a no-brainer game instead of my usual logic games, did minimal decision-making for work and personal duties or made my mom decided what will I wear when I go to work. I think we all have rainy days like this – that you sometimes just want to let it all flow and don’t mind about whatever happens just because. On my case, it lasted for nearly a week. What happened to me was my mind had gone wandering around, however, I didn’t exactly feel sad. It’s as if I had a vacation, just that, it’s only my mind who left and wander off. But as the word ‘vacation’ implies, it’s only temporary and only lasts for a short period of time.ย 

When I woke up today, it’s like the ‘be-the-usual-Joh’ Reset Button got turned on. I felt okay and relaxed and I already decided that I’ve got to do what I got to do already. But I guess, I needed that kind of ‘power off’ from my daily routine. I think it’s also good to relax all my active cells and be a pretty stagnant potato sometimes.

So now, It’s about time for me to continue my unfinished business. To my readers (Mico, Barbs, Coy, Ava), I hope you are still reading and actively share your thoughts to me about my blogs. Many thanks for your constant support! ๐Ÿ˜Š

Day 7: List 10 songs that you’re loving right now.

(My genrรจ goes from Pop to RnB to Slow Rock so please understand why my playlist is kind of…..unique. Haha)

Standing At The Edge Of The Earth (Blessid Union of Souls)

– I particularly have this song in my Top 1 because I really, really like the meaning of the song. It talks about someone who is willing to wait for a person that only God knows when she/he’ll ever come back. The saddest part is, it was already anticipated that eventually, that person will leave. It’s not like I can relate, but what struck me most is the genuine feeling of trust and dedication. Favorite line: ‘I knew that this moment would come in time, that I have to let go and watch you fly. I know you’re coming back so why am I dying inside?’

2. Location (Khalid)

To be honest, this song was played again and again on radios, restaurants, and pubs which makes me unconsciously sing out loud. Haha. But one thing’s sure, I like this song not just because of the tune but because of the meaning. Khalid’s way of singing makes us think he’s bored yet there’s a hint of soul in it. The song talks about the younger generation about being so fixated in our mobile phones and finds it enough for us to communicate through SMS/Chat. He wants to reiterate about asking one’s ‘location’ and he will go there right away instead of having virtual conversations. Favorite line: ‘Send me your location, let’s focus on communicating ‘coz I just need the time and place to come through.’

3. Capsize (Frenship)

I love this song!! Lol. This song has 2 parts – first one talks about these 2 lovers who ended up being apart from each other and both of them are trying their best to move on, second part talks about the singer’s first love who changed him into a better person but still ended on a breakup and made the second verse dedicated to her. Although it sounds sad, It’s actually a mixture of both uplifting and despair kind of feelings. It had me on both tune and meaning which is why I have this on my playlist. Kind of a ‘reminder’ for me about my past relationships and the ‘could-have-been’ thoughts. No favorite line since I like everything about it.

4. Hey There Delilah (Plain White T’s)

This song is quite dear to me since my first love made me a song which is entitled ‘Hey there Johara’ which was mirrored to this song. Awww. Hahaha. Even though we ended quite bitterly, this song has been etched in my heart because if you have listened to this, the song goes on and one for her love to Delilah. It’s like a reminder to Delilah that wherever she goes, she is always in the guy’s heart and all the sweet things the guy have mentioned in the song is only for Delilah. The tune of the song gives off the feeling of being in the countryside. Favorite Line: ‘Hey there Delilah, don’t you worry about the distance. I’m right there if you get lonely. Give this song another listen, close you eyes.’

5. Sunset (Marques Houston)

Just like the title of the song, sunsets are the best part when the day comes to an end. The Sunset was compared to a relationship that ended but the guy has been thinking of the girl even after the breakup and hopes that one day, they would at least be friends. It also talks about how the guy adores the girl – how he was caught off guard by the girl and fell in love with her, or how he describes the girl as a rare catch. If you’re a girl who will listen to the song and feel for the guy, you’ll probably end up being sad. And betrayed. It’s as if the girl only loved the guy half-heartedly. Nonetheless, I like how sweet yet painful the song is. Favorite Line:.No matter what happened between me and you, I’ll always be the man that you could run to. I loved you then I love you now and forever ‘coz you’re my sunset.’

6. How Do I Breathe? (Mario)

RnB vibe on this song, by the way. The song makes you want to sing coz of the catchy tune. I’ve always been a fan of Mario and his songs and one of my all-time fave is this song. It talks about someone who feels lost and breathless after a breakup. Funny as it may seem but I find it kind of cute. Lol. The tune just piqued my interest and I listen to this song whenever I want to feel mushy. Hahaha.ย 

7. More Than You Know (Axwell /\ Ingrosso)

When this song was first released on Spotify, it won my heart right away particularly the Acoustic Version. I didn’t know how an upbeat slash electro genrรจ turned into acoustic sounded so pure and sweet. All the more when I knew that the former ‘Swedish House Mafia’ group now known as the aforementioned can sing like that! Talk about total eargasm! The song talked about a lover being appreciated. This is my go-to song in times when rainy days are over me. It makes me feel refreshed, loved, and that there’s this one person who appreciates me best. It keeps me going. Favorite Line: ‘I just need to get it off my chest. More than you know, you should know that baby you’re the best.’

8. Ice Box (Omarion)

Going back to good ‘ol 2000’s! I think there is something about Black American’s voice which constantly keeps my playlists grow every single time. Like Mario, Omarion’s voice is so sexy. This song brought out the best in him. As someone who has gone through a difficult breakup, the song makes me guilty for some reason. Somehow, it’s like the guy will eventually get tired of me if I become too difficult to handle which leads him being cold to me and eventually, would give up. Ironic as it is, I like the song because it’s subtly saying that I should be transparent from the start since it’s a way to help each other. I mean, if the relationship fails, then at least there won’t be regrets since all has been said and all has been laid.

9. No Vacancy (One Republic)

Summer vibes coming from One Republic? It’s so refreshing! One Republic Songs are known to be emotional and dark, but this song is very different. It talks about someone who has felt new feelings, new life, and new discoveries. The guy found his love of his life and suddenly, his dull world became a rollercoaster ride. It’s a fun song – lyrics was well thought, tune is catchy, and the band had a great comeback. Favorite Line: ‘Used to be that I felt so damn empty, ever since I met you no vacancy.’

10. African Queen (2Face Idibia)

Anyone here who has watched PHAT Girls? If you haven’t, you wouldn’t want to miss it for the world! The song is an original soundtrack dedicated to this movie. The song talks about the lesson of the movie – about appreciation of oneself, the uniqueness of a woman’s beauty, ecstatic feeling of being in love. This band got their debut right after this song and guess what? The band is comprised black Americans! Quite similar vibe when you listen to Reggae, or with Kolohe Kai’s. Going back to the movie, I like it so much since it gives a beautiful meaning to the word ‘FAT’ or as the main characters would similarly pronounce it as ‘PHAT’ – Pretty, Hot And Thick and that is to love yourself whatever your physical disposition is. Body shaming has been the hobby of many social sharks especially when these people see that your body is not the ‘normal’ size as ‘it should be’. This movie heightens awareness to those ladies to embrace their unique body features and never be ashamed of it.ย 

My gosh, I think I’ve expressed myself too much on a topic where one can simply give a one to two liner answers. Haha. I have to admit, this topic is really simple but I was able to lay down my inner thoughts on why I love these songs. I had too much fun in making this blog. ๐Ÿ™‚
Well, I hope you didn’t get bored for reading though!ย 
Out and About!



Day 6 of #30DayChallenge for October!

I have been very busy over the weekend (I attended a company event last Sunday, went to a Family Gathering last Saturday plus met my Auntie to finalize on how do we go about on watching over her business while she is out of the country). When I finally got the chance to have my “me time” and make the blog yesterday evening, our Internet Connection acted up. In other words, I missed writing for 3 days. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Nonetheless, I will make up for it today and will cover all missing days for the challenge!


Day 6: 3 ways to win your heart. 


  • Be Consistent. 

    “So what do you want for a man?”

    A common question like this always comes around whenever a man courts a woman but I also see this sentence compatible in terms of choosing friends. Although this line seems to be overused in love, I have one permanent answer which is true for so long both in love and in life and that is, I want someone or I want the people that I am with who are consistent. Now, you might be thinking that being consistent is too ‘broad’ or ‘highly unlikely’ since human as we are, we are inclined to change. So Joh, what do you EXACTLY mean by being consistent?

    A person who has been transparent from Day 1 is one of the things I consider as someone being consistent. Someone who speaks his mind with pride and truth is difficult to find in this world full of play and pretend. To each of his own, as they say and I live by that quote. We all have a unique individualities – some of us are used to putting up a facade every day to please the people around us, or some of us lived his/her life genuinely. I’ve been so socially active way back in my High school and College years so I’ve met people from different walks of life. Damned by my so-called ‘best friends’, betrayed by my co-officers, loved by my acquaintances, and rebelled by my subordinates. All these experiences have made me who I am today and I wish to use those experiences as a steppimg stone to finding the right people OR person to be with me. For everyone’s knowledge, I am a person who has established many different connections but unfortunately, some of them are connections which are regrettable. Since then, I have been cautious to the people around me and I told myself that I don’t need to maintain those bridges. If those bridges hinder me to learn and experience better horizon, then by all means I have to cut and burn these bridges. But of course, I was able to meet few people who were amazingly true to me til the end. Sure, there were rainy and catastrophic days but after all, I always get to see the rainbow together with them. To sum it up, I’d rather know upfront what you are and you’re not that because it makes both of our lives easier and our friendship better. 

    • Casual and meaningful conversations

    It is known to anyone who has worked, studied, or met me that I am ome talkative girl. This is the only truth which even my mom can attest to this with everyone’s consent. As much as I want to keep everyone close around me, circumstances and priorities have also taken a turn into my life so I can say that I am not someone who I was 2-3 years ago. It may sound big to others but I guess it’s just that ‘life’ started early for me but I’ve no regrets actually. I’m fine with petty and mindless conversations from time to time but it doesn’t entertain me as much as before anymore. I’ve noticed that nowadays, my heart feels so much joy whenever I’m conversing with someone who feels so much about his work, his life, his goals, or even his shortcomings. It’s like there are still many things I need to learn, to become and to achieve and so much more. Way back in College, I always look forward to the weekend and go out with friends to party, drink and waste the night away and it lasted until my first year of being employed. Now THAT was life for me. However, after the second year of working and up until now, I go out and grab a few drinks but not into the typical ‘party-all-night-long’ fever anymore. Instead, I kind of moved on from that phase and appreciated long talks than long island iced tea shots.

    • Be Courageous.

    I admire anyone who always live up to their words and make sure that if anything goes wrong, he/she finds the strength to face these challenges head-on. Not everyone acknowledges their faults and misbehaviour since they think it’s a form of a weakness but to me, someone who braves the storm even though he/she knows that it might not end well like those in happy ending movies, that is a person worth keeping and will always have a special place in my heart. I hate to admit but I’m not that strong when it comes to facing the harsh realities of life. Even if I want to stand up for whatever I think is right, there is always a part of me which is hesitant to take action and worse, become passive. I think this pretty much is the reason why it leads me to liking and idolizing people who does the opposite of me. 
    As you may noticed, I was able to thoroughly explained bullet 1 since that is the ONLY thing I’m affirmative that a person can be in order for him to win me. I believe that consistency is the key to beautiful relationships. It is when you know a person from inside out that you can assess whether or not that person can mean something or nothing to you in the long run. โค
    Out and About!



    Day 5 of #30DayChallenge for October!


    I am on Personal Leave today from work for A LOT of reasons:

    • ‘Supposed’ SK Filing of Candidacy (which turns out was postponed for the nth time already by our President)
    • Lola’s 90th Birthday (so we visited her grave together with my other relatives)
    • Lunch Date with Bayu (who certainly was able to make a sumptuous meat dish!)
    • Despedida Treat to my Auntie (who will be returning to Aussie in the next 2 days)

    Thankfully, today’s busy schedule was maximized and favorably realized. ๐Ÿ˜Š It pays to relax a bit for a day after a month’s hard work. ๐Ÿ˜‡

    Though the massage was such a bliss (Oh btw, this was my Despedida treat to my Auntie so it was me, Mom, and Auntie who had a great massage time in Thai Boran), I have to make sure that my Daily journal is up to date so here I am!

    Day 5: List 5 places you want to visit. (Tbh, I can only name 3 places at the moment since these places has been my goal for so long and I didn’t have the luxury on thinking somewhere else . Hehe)

    1. Mountain Province (Kalinga)

    Wherever my feet would take me, I will always hope and strive to go back to that jaw-dropping mountain view which I was able to visit last March 2016. The relaxing view of rice terraces, such beautiful flowing lakes, large and tall trees and wonderful people has earned a big part of my heart ever since. Enjoying what’s nature got to offer without ANY digital intervention will definitely detoxify you from all sorts of distraction. It’s best to go there if you would need a place to divert your attention away from civilization and work.

    2. Japan

    Japan has been my lifelong dream vacation place! Animรจ (Japanese Animation) has taken a toll on me even before I was young and up until today, I am still a sucker for mangas, cosplay, J-pop and Japanese cuisine. Tokyo, Hokkaido, Kyoto, Akihabara, Fukuoka, and Yakushima Island are the top 5 places I wish to visit before I die since these places showcased the different faces of Japan – from the ancient temples, shrines, and sculptures to modern buildings, restos, and inventions. For now, I can only picture out from afar how Japan looks and feels like by conversing with my Japanese students (Oh btw, I am a Part-time home based Online ESL Teacher) and through watching animรจ but I know that soon enough, I will be able to have a firsthand experience of the country!! ๐Ÿ˜

    3. Tri-City (Vietnam – Cambodia – Thailand)

    This was supposedly my year-ender trip for 2017 to celebrate my 24th birthday, however, I wasn’t able to find any favorable airfare to realize this but instead will visit Hongkong. I’ve known from my Highschool History about Southeast Asian countries and how rich their heritage and culture are similarly like The Philippines. As I’ve mentioned in my previous blog, I long to travel to places – new and old, far and near, to satisfy my thirst for intellectual longing and satisfaction. As a food blogger, I have come across different kinds of cuisine and to be honest, I have been focusing on hunting more of Vietnamese food especially Phรฒ. Phรฒ is a beef-broth based rice noodle with beef strips, fresh herbs, sriracha, mongo sprouts, and lemon so it naturally gives off a hearty and refreshing kind of feeling after eating it. I also like their Banh Mi (Vietnamese Sandwich) and many others so going to Vietnam will not only fill my eyes with their cultural beauty but will definitely fill my heart and stomach for their unique food!

    Guh! Talking about travels and food hunts sure ignite the adventurer fire in me! I cannot wait to my Hongkong Escapade on November and Singapore galore on May 2018! ๐Ÿ˜†

    Out and About!


    Day 4 of #30DayChallenge for October!

    A LO HAAAA! ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š
    It’s a Humpday Wednesday today which means…… the weekend is near! Wohooo! ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‰

    Before I begin my Day 4, I actually don’t have the slightest idea on how do I start writing – perhaps because I’m having a hard time to think of how do I answer the question…? Or maybe I simply don’t know if I can even answer it.

    So currently, I’m on my 4th cup of wine while contemplating Day 4’s topic (4 should be the lucky number? Haha) Aaaand on this 4th cup, I have finally found my answer! Special thanks for the unwavering support, Wine. You saved me tonite.

    Day 4: Write about someone who inspires you.

    Some people would automatically say that it’s their mom who serves as an inspiration to them, or their father, or sister. For me, it’s not that I don’t feel the same way like them ‘coz I really do. However, going back to the topic and asking myself, again and again, the clouds in my head seemed to gradually disappear until I was able to park on one answer.

    After all, I am more inspired by….

    The Better version of me.

    Conceited as you think, but there is no other person who I feel inspired every day but the better version of me. However, I’d like you to understand where is this ‘confidence’ coming from as I can definitely assure you that my reason for having that does not come off easily.

    As someone who has studied Psychology in Uni and has practiced the course after graduation, there have been countless times where I thought that I was the stupidest, dumbest and reckless person alive and how ironic do you think it is? Someone who is known to be Alpha, perky, extrovert and a people-person feel the exact opposite of herself? Truth be told, I am a woman full of insecurities and doubts and this has been my unfortunate drawback whenever rainy days come.

    Introspection was my only best friend. I learned to take a deep dive into the depth of my thoughts and at the same, acknowledge who I am and I’m not. All my life, I have tried my best to achieve what was expected of me – in terms of grades, relationships, careers, and goals and luckily, I was able to manage and get through with all of it positively. My grades were great, I didn’t have any boyfriend during college days, I am able to have a stable job and my goals are always set. I haven’t been the greatest daughter or sister to my family since I have too many shortcomings but I know that in general, I was a good girl. Even Santa can praise me for that. ๐Ÿ˜‰

    Now that I grew old and able to experience many different things, my behavior and logical reasoning started to shift – I became toxic both to myself and to my work, I hated everything around me, I don’t give a damn whether I hurt other people so long as I have given a piece of my mind and I became too rational to the point my reasoning is pathetic. In short, I became a total mess and I despised myself for being one.

    So, what’s the deal? How does this support my answer to the topic? Well, it was actually during the First Sunday last September 2017 where I attended the Holy Mass and instead of hearing the Word Of God, my mind was having her own discussion about myself.

    “Joh, what has become of you?”, ” Joh, are you happy?”, “Joh, do you even need a boyfriend who doesn’t share the same goals with you?”, “Joh, is your job giving you the fulfillment you wanted?”. It was as if the Holy Mass was the perfect avenue for me to organize my thoughts and simply focus on what has been going on with me. I know it defeats the purpose of attending the Mass but I was truly grateful for that time because if not for that, I wouldn’t be able to feel the genuine joy, freedom, and clarity that my heart had longed for. I’m sure God is happy in a way. ๐Ÿ˜

    That time, I was able to face myself, conquered my own battles and reached a conclusion. It is to say that….
    ‘Stop. It’s okay. It is still okay.’
    Now,ย I always remind myself that it’s okay.

    It’s okay to feel stupid.

    It’s okay to feel dumb.

    It’s okay to feel restless. Why?

    Meaning, there is ample room for growth and personal change! Do I really want to stay toxic all my life? Do I really want to break up with my boyfriend? Do I really want to leave the company? All of these concerns come gushing to me since I’m so used to living the fast-paced kind of life that whenever there is something that piques my interest, my attention is diverted right away and I tend to forget all other important things. Worst? If I am not able to answer my own worries, then paranoia take over and I go back to being a mess. I know I am someone who got lots of dreams to aim, lots of ideas to realize, and lots of energy to share, but sometimes it becomes so overwhelming that the only decision I can come up is simply to quit and say that I’m done. But no, that is definitely not me.

    If I must say, September is the turning point of my life. It was my first time to be on the slumps for quite a while (it lasted for nearly 3 weeks) but fortunately, I came back. Who helped me? Well, guess who…..
    ….me. I helped myself. The better version of myself helped the lame Joh to get past all personal issues that I experienced. There has been a constant battle within me and my negative side but at the end of the day, the idea that I can still change for the better and become a good person always keep me from going astray. And my inspiration will never change.

    Quite a lengthy post, eh? Maybe it’s the alcohol that’s talking. Oh well.

    Out and About!



    Day 3 of #30DayChallenge for October!

    It’s crazy!! ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ

    I have received warm messages from my old and new friends who were able to read my other posts from this challenge and it makes me super happy to have these people waiting and subscribing to my blog posts. Thank you so much for your support dear friends! ๐Ÿ˜Œ

    Now, let’s have Day 3!

    Day 3: What are your top 3 pet peeves? (In Order)

    1. Mockingly pronounces “Johara” as “JU-HA-RA!” with a strong accent.

    To all my closest friends, they know for a fact that I seriously get deadly and mad whenever I hear someone who blatantly pronounces my name in THAT kind of manner. Call me weird, I could care less but NEVER, EVER mock the way you call me by my name. I think this pet peeve started way back in College. It ticks the guts out of me whenever my colleagues/new classmates tend to do this. I can’t explain exactly why do I feel strongly about it so as much as possible, I always use “Joh” when I’m introducing myself to others to make sure that this would be prevented.

    2. Biting one’s nails


    Whenever my little sister does this, my reflexes kick in and I slap her hands away from her mouth unknowingly and now, I’ve had this habit with me even at work (which sometimes gives me a headache since I do what I always do to my lil sis to my co-workers). From my perspective, it doesn’t look nowhere presentable nor good for a woman to bite her nails, especially in public. It shows anxiety, poor hygiene,ย  restlessness and worst, lack of self-confidence. For you to be able to carry yourself appropriately, biting the nails is way out of the picture. Even though you say that you are hygienic, clearly your mannerisms speak for you even without any explanation.ย 

    3. Shameless Public discussions on Elevatorsย  and Jeepneys

    Guys, if there is a table manners/etiquette, then there is also what we call ‘Elevator/Jeepney Etiquette’. It means that there are certain do‘s/don’ts for us to consider for us to live harmoniously with others. Say, for example, you go to work and always ride the elevator to reach your designated floor. However, in that specific building, there are also other people who are working but are situated on different floor levels. Meaning to say, there will always be a time that you get to share a ride with them. This situation goes the same when riding a Jeepney. You are inside a space where everyone is a total stranger so ‘normally’, they don’t need to know your personal and professional circumstances. But truth be told, there are just some people in the world who are plain tactless. These people talk about WORK, BOSSES, SALARY, LOVELIFE, and even DEBTS inside this small space! I mean, YOU deserve to have your own privacy but why are you treating it lightly? Some people just answer the phone calls and talk about confidential things in front of other passengers and that is just so wrong on many levels! And that’s not it. Since these passengers were able to hear and be an audience to your life, they would give automatically give you the ‘stare’ and you might think that the back of their minds, they are making fun of you. Simple logic: It’s like your taking off your clothes in public and getting mad at the passengers who are watching you. I mean, y u mad? You okay? ๐Ÿ˜

    I’ve actually another 2-3 more pet peeves to share but since I was only asked to tell 3, then let’s just leave that thought for another time. ๐Ÿ˜€


    Once again, thanks for reading and see you again tomorrow. ๐Ÿผ
    Out and About!



    Day 2 of #30DayChallenge for October!


    Here I am on my Day 2 of the #30DayChallenge for the month of October. Before I start with it, I would like to give a shoutout to 2 of my friends (Angel Cipriano and EJ Concepcion) who told me that they were ‘inspired’ to make this out from my Fb post. Sending my virtual hugs to you!! ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘

    Now let’s proceed with my Day 2!

    Day 2: Write something that someone told you about yourself that you never forget.

    “You are my pride.”

    To all the guys I have loved before, no one has mentioned this again aside from my very first love. His name is K. (Author’s Note: It is primarily because he WAS my first love and that I’ve clearly moved on from him why I am able to drop his name blatantly. After all, this post is all about that something someone has told you which you will never forget.) Before I explain thoroughly about the line I dropped in the first part, let’s have a little trip down my memory lane.

    I met K way back 2010 – this was the time where I started to join a Youth Organization called Youth For Christ (YFC). I was still a young high school student and he was already in his last year as a Computer Engineering student. We were colleagues who are serving the same community and we have known each other well since both of us were very active and participative. Well of course, fast forward… We get to become closer to each other and had THAT Mutual Understanding (which Iย thinkย would mean that we get to be exclusively dating and we are on the same page on where we want our relationship would be in the coming days). I can almost recall the first dates, the first cries, the first hugs and the first one who I have loved aside from my family. I’d like to think we had the best time of our lives back then but as they say, ‘We had the right love at the wrong time.’. My parents were the typical old Filipino Family – strict in terms of relationships, curfew should be honored, dates are not allowed until graduation, etc. They wanted me to finish my studies up until college BEFORE I get to have and experience a relationship. So as our happiness evolved around each other every single day, little did I know that it was only meant like a teaser…. It didn’t become the movie in my life but it only served as an advertisement – shortlived, abrupt and it ended too fast.

    Now Joh, where does the statement ‘You are my pride.’ come from?
    It came from K. He said this one time when we were in the midst of quarrel. Honestly, I forgot what was the discussion we had why he was able to say this but one thing’s sure, he had my heart and soul when he uttered those 4 words and that until now, has always lingered in my mind. No, I am not saying I wanted to go back to him, but it’s just that it was the first time I felt that a man has appreciated me so much he was able to acknowledge my existence, let alone became his pride. When he told me that, it came to me like a powerful wind who blows whatever comes its way or like a mad thunder who sends chills down to your spine when you hear it.

    Though our relationship was done and gone in the past, it was a beautiful memory where I can happily go back reminiscing but not necessarily wanting to go back to the person. He was a part of me, his words filled my thirst for love and care but what’s done is done. I will always be thankful for that 1 wonderful sentence he told me and any material gift I received from him cannot even compare.ย 

    Being genuinely appreciated is a life’s blessing. You may have ended and parted ways with some of the people who have appreciated you before, but be reminded that there was a time in your life that those people made you feel complete, loved, and feel good about yourself – or by just simply existing. Thank them anyway. โค

    Out and About!